am starting to feel down for some reason and dont know why exactly. i i need to get out of this small town called juneau, and i will be on the 1st of december but i dont know if i can hold out that long. in this town i feel like i dont have anyone to talk with, i have like no freinds and the only ones that i can talk with are my relitives and i really dont want to bring them inside my world. i dont know what the fu## i am going to do to stop my self from self harm or (cutting on myself) i just dont know right now. i want to cut but then it pi## of my mom and i dont want to do that. i JUST dont know what i am going to do.