JennifersHope
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So where else to go when you freak out??? LOL actually I should say, cry out loud, because that is what I am doing.
I don't know where all this emotion is coming from. I totally know that the nasal PD is going to be negative tomorrow.. I just know it. I don't even have a question of a doubt..
This was my day to get to UNC or I should the hotel. I woke up not wanting to get out of bed, once I got going, I couldn't think straight to pack, I only need something to wear for the test and to drive home in, I am not going to the ball, I could not decide what to wear, I actually started to cry, and so I packed three different outfits. I mean what does one wear when they are about to find out of their life they have lived for the past 10 years was under the presumption of a false diagnose. I mean it doesn't take away how sick I have been but for sure you can appreciate the difference.
By the time I left the house.. I was shaking, I got in my car and as I was driving. I decided to stop for a pedicure, I have no idea why, I don't even know where I stopped just somewhere along the way.
Half way through the pedicure I had an anxiety attack, what the heck am I doing getting my toes painted, I have to get to Chapel Hill... So I quickly left as soon as I was done with those cute paper towel flip flops on ...
Two hours later I decided to get gas and go potty, I stop the car and go to put my shoes on.. OMG I left my shoes at the pedicure place.. So now I have to fine a walmart or target to get shoes in.. I walked through the store mostly bare foot with just a little of the paper towel flip flop on.
My brother lives along the way to UNC so I stop in just to say hello, I can't eat or anything because I am to nervous. I go to look for his dog because I brought it a treat, turns out the dog died last week. For some reason when he told me that.. I started cracking up LAUGHING.. WTH is wrong with me.. I am a major dog person and even if I wasn't I certainly would never laugh at the pain of someone else.. My brother looked at me with a look I well deserved.
A few other mishaps happened but here I sit NOT at the ROnald MCdonald house because they were to full to take me. I am in a hotel and all of a sudden I start to cry..
My friends offered to go with me but I thought for sure I would be fine on my own. Well I am crying so hard, my eyes are red and puffy and my already stuffed/runny nose is running like a river...
Okay I feel better, just needed to get that out....Tonight is my last night I will ever wonder again.....
and for those of you who asked,
yes I have two genes DF508 and the questionable Q1330E
Yes I have had three positive sweat tests
Yes I have but do not currently culture PA and MRSA,
I keep getting PMS about those things... Those are just the facts, I don't know what else to say about that.
I don't know where all this emotion is coming from. I totally know that the nasal PD is going to be negative tomorrow.. I just know it. I don't even have a question of a doubt..
This was my day to get to UNC or I should the hotel. I woke up not wanting to get out of bed, once I got going, I couldn't think straight to pack, I only need something to wear for the test and to drive home in, I am not going to the ball, I could not decide what to wear, I actually started to cry, and so I packed three different outfits. I mean what does one wear when they are about to find out of their life they have lived for the past 10 years was under the presumption of a false diagnose. I mean it doesn't take away how sick I have been but for sure you can appreciate the difference.
By the time I left the house.. I was shaking, I got in my car and as I was driving. I decided to stop for a pedicure, I have no idea why, I don't even know where I stopped just somewhere along the way.
Half way through the pedicure I had an anxiety attack, what the heck am I doing getting my toes painted, I have to get to Chapel Hill... So I quickly left as soon as I was done with those cute paper towel flip flops on ...
Two hours later I decided to get gas and go potty, I stop the car and go to put my shoes on.. OMG I left my shoes at the pedicure place.. So now I have to fine a walmart or target to get shoes in.. I walked through the store mostly bare foot with just a little of the paper towel flip flop on.
My brother lives along the way to UNC so I stop in just to say hello, I can't eat or anything because I am to nervous. I go to look for his dog because I brought it a treat, turns out the dog died last week. For some reason when he told me that.. I started cracking up LAUGHING.. WTH is wrong with me.. I am a major dog person and even if I wasn't I certainly would never laugh at the pain of someone else.. My brother looked at me with a look I well deserved.
A few other mishaps happened but here I sit NOT at the ROnald MCdonald house because they were to full to take me. I am in a hotel and all of a sudden I start to cry..
My friends offered to go with me but I thought for sure I would be fine on my own. Well I am crying so hard, my eyes are red and puffy and my already stuffed/runny nose is running like a river...
Okay I feel better, just needed to get that out....Tonight is my last night I will ever wonder again.....
and for those of you who asked,
yes I have two genes DF508 and the questionable Q1330E
Yes I have had three positive sweat tests
Yes I have but do not currently culture PA and MRSA,
I keep getting PMS about those things... Those are just the facts, I don't know what else to say about that.