Trisha,
I also battled depression from about age 15 to early 20's. Feel free to email me with any questions/"venting" you feel like sharing. I also struggle with panic disorders and panic attacks and migraines (usually brought on by stress). And, to top it off, I have been dealing with different procedures to get rid of pre-cancerous cells "down there", so I think I kinda know what you're going through. It is alot to bear. I often found solace in writing down my thoughts and my sadness. I often go back to those pages and read them now and am reminded of the darkness I went through and how that has brought me to the person I am today.
I do try to keep in mind though, that although I am going through some really tough stuff, it can always be worse, and I remain thankful that I have plugged away for this long and done relatively well with this illness. I also remain thankful that I was born in this country with its technological advances and approaches to treat CF. There are many others not in the US (and some in the US, unfortnately) that are not able to receive care for their CF at all and thus have a much shorter life.
I try to make the best of what I'm given. I know CF is a really hard thing to deal with and the idea that it will "only get worse" is sometimes too hard to fathom. Find comfort in knowing you are not alone and the thoughts you are feeling are very common (more so than you'd think). Sometimes, posting and hearing what others have to say on a forum like this is a great stress reliever (notice all the posts I do???).... Make sure you take advantage of everything you can that is an outlet for your emotions. Whenever you need reassurance, I feel confident your friends here will offer support.
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