lightNlife
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I think we've all been in your situation. I know I sure was. One of the things that was a wake up call for me was when CF friend of mine was dismissed from my clinic's care for his refusal to cooperate. He didn't do his treatments, he didn't eat right or take care of himself at all. The docs told him that if he wasn't going to put in the effort, then they weren't either. He was referred to a different doctor.
4 months later, he died.
I know that the treatments are overwhelming and time consuming. I used to think that so long as I was doing "okay" then I really didn't need to do much work to take care of myself. When I finally DID take care of myself, I saw how crappy my "okay" had truly been. I was truly shocked by how much better I began to feel.
CF is complicated. You know that. We all struggle with it in different ways. Even when we do our absolute best to take care of ourselves, CF sometimes does its own thing.
Why even bother at all then? Here's why: Because the burden of CF alone is tough to bear. Imagine carrying the burden of guilt of knowing you could have done better.
The fact that you were honest enough to share about your non-compliance demonstrates that part of you knows you HAVE to do the right thing before it all gets out of hand. You may be feeling like you'll be giving something up by doing all the treatments all the time. That's normal. We all have other things we'd rather be doing than sucking down meds and coughing out our guts. But think of it this way: you stand to gain far more by being compliant.
Lately I've come to see that I'm not losing time, but investing in it. Like most investments it's not a guarantee. Nontheless, I invest my time doing treatments in the hopes that it will translate into a payo of of more time to spend doing the things I enjoy--like being my husband's lover and best friend.
Best wishes to you, my anonymous friend. Take care of yourself.
-Lauren
4 months later, he died.
I know that the treatments are overwhelming and time consuming. I used to think that so long as I was doing "okay" then I really didn't need to do much work to take care of myself. When I finally DID take care of myself, I saw how crappy my "okay" had truly been. I was truly shocked by how much better I began to feel.
CF is complicated. You know that. We all struggle with it in different ways. Even when we do our absolute best to take care of ourselves, CF sometimes does its own thing.
Why even bother at all then? Here's why: Because the burden of CF alone is tough to bear. Imagine carrying the burden of guilt of knowing you could have done better.
The fact that you were honest enough to share about your non-compliance demonstrates that part of you knows you HAVE to do the right thing before it all gets out of hand. You may be feeling like you'll be giving something up by doing all the treatments all the time. That's normal. We all have other things we'd rather be doing than sucking down meds and coughing out our guts. But think of it this way: you stand to gain far more by being compliant.
Lately I've come to see that I'm not losing time, but investing in it. Like most investments it's not a guarantee. Nontheless, I invest my time doing treatments in the hopes that it will translate into a payo of of more time to spend doing the things I enjoy--like being my husband's lover and best friend.
Best wishes to you, my anonymous friend. Take care of yourself.
-Lauren