I too am currently in the hospital. I've noticed that more than feeling like I let anyone down, I feel like my admission is a burden to them. My mom has to drive an hour to come visit, then an hour home. They've cancelled vacations because I was in. My dad lives in MO and I'm in CO. So I know he feels guilty cuz he can't be here with me. Some of my family (who I rarely talk to when I'm out) feel that they need to call me while I'm in. Maybe just to support their "sick" cousin/niece... maybe just because the hospital has a toll free number and it's the only time they don't have to pay to talk to me! And as for my friends, I think they all feel like I demand more from them while I'm in. And I'll admit, sometimes I do. I ripped my best friend a new one last admission because she didn't call or come visit a single time while I was in. (Was that wrong?) I think they all know this is fairly routine, and feel like why should they have to go above and beyond what they would do if I were out? Maybe that's just me.
Aimee/22/CF