fondreflections
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The past month has been nothing shy of a nightmare to say the least...
*I was diagnosed as infertile.
*I got so upset over it that I ended up really sick (currently on Cipro).
*My 5-6 year old Lab died after only being diagnosed with cancer 4 weeks prior.
I know that my problems aren't near as bad as some of the ones that others are facing, and I'm not complaining in any way. Actually, I think I'm starting to calm down. I'm finally feeling "at peace".
I also started babysitting 2 days a week for a total of 12 hours. The babysitting has really helped ease the whole "childless" feelings. Also, I was pretty sick when I first started, and it made me really think hard. "Just maybe me not having children is for a reason. It's kind of hard to take care of an infant while sick." The first two days were a crash course. Aidan and I survived, but it was hard for me with being so sick.
This week, I'm feeling better. The head cold is gone but left a sinus and chest infection. I think I'll be fine. HOWEVER, the whole scheme of being "childless" may not be such a bad thing.
My husband works 12-hour days. If we had a baby and I got sick, it would be SO HARD to do everything. I love having Aidan, but when Kelly comes to pick him up, I'm ready for a break. He does tire me out, and he's only 8 months old. I think babysitting was the BEST thing I could have done!!! I have received a "taste" of reality, and for that I am thankful. I'm not sure I could raise a child "full-tme".
Jake is completely relieved that I'm coming to this on my own. He saw how my outlook changed so quickly.
<b>I hope no one misunderstands me. I would love to have children, but I'm not too sure how I could be a parent AND keep up with my health.</b>
Also, I see some of the challenges that new Moms with CF are facing currently. It doesn't exactly convince me to "push" pregnancy with IVF.
Overall, I'm really starting to feel at "peace". FINALLY!
<b>OT</b>: As far as my Lab, Moss...He had to be "put down" on Jan. 22.
*The Saturday before the 22nd, I felt (4) tumors on his neck. He was acting "normal" and eating. Moss was also playing with Gizmo, our Shih Tzu.
*Monday, the 21st, Moss threw up twice. He didn't eat until 3 in the afternoon and wasn't acting like himself for the FIRST time.
*Tuesday, the 22nd, Moss threw up five times by 1:00. We called the vet to have him put down. He was down to dry heaves and was terrible. He couldn't eat and was throwing up any water he was trying to drink. Two of the 4 tumors were now noticable upon looking. All 4 tumors were larger to the touch. Our vet said that his throat was closing. <b> Nothing could be done since they were cancerous tumors.</b>
*Moss was put to rest at 1:30 in the afternoon on the 22nd...I held his head as he drifted off to sleep...We buried him in the backyard.
In one month, he was gone...The Prednisone did nothing to help slow down the cancer...
Who ever thought that an increasing in peeing would result from cancer??? <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0">
<img src="http://i129.photobucket.com/albums/p212/yenilson/Christmas2007004.jpg">
Above: My Moss 1 month prior to cancer diagnosis...
*I was diagnosed as infertile.
*I got so upset over it that I ended up really sick (currently on Cipro).
*My 5-6 year old Lab died after only being diagnosed with cancer 4 weeks prior.
I know that my problems aren't near as bad as some of the ones that others are facing, and I'm not complaining in any way. Actually, I think I'm starting to calm down. I'm finally feeling "at peace".
I also started babysitting 2 days a week for a total of 12 hours. The babysitting has really helped ease the whole "childless" feelings. Also, I was pretty sick when I first started, and it made me really think hard. "Just maybe me not having children is for a reason. It's kind of hard to take care of an infant while sick." The first two days were a crash course. Aidan and I survived, but it was hard for me with being so sick.
This week, I'm feeling better. The head cold is gone but left a sinus and chest infection. I think I'll be fine. HOWEVER, the whole scheme of being "childless" may not be such a bad thing.
My husband works 12-hour days. If we had a baby and I got sick, it would be SO HARD to do everything. I love having Aidan, but when Kelly comes to pick him up, I'm ready for a break. He does tire me out, and he's only 8 months old. I think babysitting was the BEST thing I could have done!!! I have received a "taste" of reality, and for that I am thankful. I'm not sure I could raise a child "full-tme".
Jake is completely relieved that I'm coming to this on my own. He saw how my outlook changed so quickly.
<b>I hope no one misunderstands me. I would love to have children, but I'm not too sure how I could be a parent AND keep up with my health.</b>
Also, I see some of the challenges that new Moms with CF are facing currently. It doesn't exactly convince me to "push" pregnancy with IVF.
Overall, I'm really starting to feel at "peace". FINALLY!
<b>OT</b>: As far as my Lab, Moss...He had to be "put down" on Jan. 22.
*The Saturday before the 22nd, I felt (4) tumors on his neck. He was acting "normal" and eating. Moss was also playing with Gizmo, our Shih Tzu.
*Monday, the 21st, Moss threw up twice. He didn't eat until 3 in the afternoon and wasn't acting like himself for the FIRST time.
*Tuesday, the 22nd, Moss threw up five times by 1:00. We called the vet to have him put down. He was down to dry heaves and was terrible. He couldn't eat and was throwing up any water he was trying to drink. Two of the 4 tumors were now noticable upon looking. All 4 tumors were larger to the touch. Our vet said that his throat was closing. <b> Nothing could be done since they were cancerous tumors.</b>
*Moss was put to rest at 1:30 in the afternoon on the 22nd...I held his head as he drifted off to sleep...We buried him in the backyard.
In one month, he was gone...The Prednisone did nothing to help slow down the cancer...
Who ever thought that an increasing in peeing would result from cancer??? <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0">
<img src="http://i129.photobucket.com/albums/p212/yenilson/Christmas2007004.jpg">
Above: My Moss 1 month prior to cancer diagnosis...