Hello.
I went to clinic yesterday and found I'm to be on this new abx IV for another 2 weeks, totalling my course to 5 1/2 weeks.
I also found out in Sept. I cultured MAC (Mycobacterium avium complex). They're waiting to see if it causes problems in the future and if my recent culture grows it as well, since it takes 4-6 weeks to grow in sputum).
I'm totally stressed and feeling defeated. When will the bad news stop? How much can one take really?
The abx. are giving me a rise in my pfts, which is good, but I'm still loosing weight, still coughing up the ominous-looking stuff and still just feeling tired.
The new diagnosis of MAC was the icing on the cake. I've done a search on here for peoples' experience with this bacteria and this gives me even less hope. Sounds like I'll have it forever and likely need months, if not years of continuous antibiotics when we decide to treat it. These abx. are likely to be strong and make me very very sick with side effects.
I don't mean to rant and complain, but this would have perhaps been a bit easier to handle had my DH not deployed for another 4 months (he's been gone for the past 2 months while all this has been happening). He is my main support system and usually can put things in perspective for me, if not take my mind off things entirely.
This has been a difficult run for me... I don't know how much a person can handle in the form of bad news within a one month period.
Not sure what, if anything, I'm looking for here... Certainly not pity, as I know MANY of you have it far worse than me. Perhaps someone with MAC could put a silver lining on all of this? Perhaps it isn't all THAT bad??? Urgh.
What's really sad is I used to think my night sweats, decline in FEV1, cough, etc. were attributable to TB (silly I know)... And, I used to find myself thinking that would be easier to handle cause I know there is treatment for TB and then I'd know its not the CF causing the issue, its something totally treatable. It was a weird, twisted way of looking at things, but that's how I felt. Now that I have "TB's cousin", I don't feel any better about it OR the treatment for it. And, it appears FEV1 declines anyway with MAC <u>AND</u> I can't be on azithro anymore to maintain my CF... So, this news was not the "good" news I expected or hoped for if I had had TB.
I saw in prior posts a mention to get the opinion of Jewish Childrens' Hospital in CO for MAC. Perhaps when DH returns and I'm able to make that trek, I will, however, right now, I'm stuck where I'm at.
Thanks for your support everyone.
I went to clinic yesterday and found I'm to be on this new abx IV for another 2 weeks, totalling my course to 5 1/2 weeks.
I also found out in Sept. I cultured MAC (Mycobacterium avium complex). They're waiting to see if it causes problems in the future and if my recent culture grows it as well, since it takes 4-6 weeks to grow in sputum).
I'm totally stressed and feeling defeated. When will the bad news stop? How much can one take really?
The abx. are giving me a rise in my pfts, which is good, but I'm still loosing weight, still coughing up the ominous-looking stuff and still just feeling tired.
The new diagnosis of MAC was the icing on the cake. I've done a search on here for peoples' experience with this bacteria and this gives me even less hope. Sounds like I'll have it forever and likely need months, if not years of continuous antibiotics when we decide to treat it. These abx. are likely to be strong and make me very very sick with side effects.
I don't mean to rant and complain, but this would have perhaps been a bit easier to handle had my DH not deployed for another 4 months (he's been gone for the past 2 months while all this has been happening). He is my main support system and usually can put things in perspective for me, if not take my mind off things entirely.
This has been a difficult run for me... I don't know how much a person can handle in the form of bad news within a one month period.
Not sure what, if anything, I'm looking for here... Certainly not pity, as I know MANY of you have it far worse than me. Perhaps someone with MAC could put a silver lining on all of this? Perhaps it isn't all THAT bad??? Urgh.
What's really sad is I used to think my night sweats, decline in FEV1, cough, etc. were attributable to TB (silly I know)... And, I used to find myself thinking that would be easier to handle cause I know there is treatment for TB and then I'd know its not the CF causing the issue, its something totally treatable. It was a weird, twisted way of looking at things, but that's how I felt. Now that I have "TB's cousin", I don't feel any better about it OR the treatment for it. And, it appears FEV1 declines anyway with MAC <u>AND</u> I can't be on azithro anymore to maintain my CF... So, this news was not the "good" news I expected or hoped for if I had had TB.
I saw in prior posts a mention to get the opinion of Jewish Childrens' Hospital in CO for MAC. Perhaps when DH returns and I'm able to make that trek, I will, however, right now, I'm stuck where I'm at.
Thanks for your support everyone.